the 310th post.


THE 1st post ABOUT NJ n life since NJ.

When life gives u a lemon, you're supposed to treat it like an apple.
Apparently, i didnt.

I was told that if life hands u a lemon, say: " WHAT ELSE YOU'VE GOT?"
it works, most of the time.

But when life pours a tub of sulphuric acid on me today,
i officially surrendered to life.
TOTALLY.

what was wrong with our past Orientation Groups?
WHat did i do wrong in 2007?

Why must life hand me a bunch of masks?
WHY?

and why must life torture me again and again before i could recover..
one blow followed by another, im not sure how long i can survive.

let me tell u.
there are a few types of ppl i can stand in this world.
1) boring ppl
2) quite n shy ppl
3) gay ppl
4) les ppl
5) ppl who likes gays
6) ppl who loves to be les
7) ppl who are insanely crazy over come idol.
8) ppl who dao n ignores me
9) ppl who thinks i love them(eg.mx/dshen)
10) ppl who thinks i miss them(eg. mx/dshen/yawn)
11) ppl who thinks they are cute but are not quite(eg. mx)
12) ppl who are dumb and still like talking to me(eg.mx)

BUT there is one type of ppl i simply cannot stand:
1) ppl who wears masks.

AND NO WAY AM I GOING TO FACE MY CLASS.
NO WAY.

oh btw, to the form teacher who said some of us who may need financial assistance can gladly proceed to her office,
i just wan to say : I NEED IT. to buy a pair of bloody sports shoes.

WHATS WRONG WITH ME WEARING MY PLAIN WHITE CANVAS SHOES??????

to all those ppl out there who bi shi white canvas shoes that doesnt glamourously have NIK* or ADIDA* plastered all over the bloody shoe: yeah, like shoes are the most important things on world. Of course.

and to all those who tried to wear masks: find one that really suits u so that others like me cant see thru rite away and find it disgusting.

AND. to ming2: WHY U SO "???" ??


zzzz... my future seems bleak.
for some reason, or maybe it was due to the severe mens cramps ytd,
i absolutely lost my ability to communicate.
it was like one of the supposedly friend-making-gene just mutated all of a sudden.

I tried to try to accept these ppl and open up to talk to them, but i just sat there numbly.
I kinda felt guilty for not talking to my dance partner,
i mean, all the rest were bonding sOO well by the time the dance was halfway thru they were all as close as friends who knew each other since kindergarden le bah.
While for me, i just sat there, expressionless, speechless.

i could have pried open my mouth and spoke to him,
but i just couldnt.

so i sat there soundless, stoned, dazed.
and so did he some how.

and guess what, tmr is my bdae.
these things that happened today totally confirmed me that tmr would be worse.
because the biggest present is yet to be open, and that is tmr.

i really didnt expect today to be so horrifying.
i was prepared for something bad to happen, but not so severe.

WHile i was busy thanking LIFE for giving me such wonderoud present for my bdae tmr,
i almost cried in the process.
i was so touched my eyes were practically glazed with tears thru out the whole dance period and whatever bonding sessions.

WHAT's more, just as i thought seeing ming2 yadahing away with whole bunch of M*s girls was like the worst of today, i scalded myself with hot water.

really scalded.
it was really embarassing indeed to have yourself accompanied away by the ogl to the teacher's room during the middle of the game ( because i scalded myself during halfway break).
ANd one of the teacher gave me a skeptical look and say: its nothing what. no open wound.

LIKE WHAT? u expect me to have a 3rd degree burn or sth before u decide i deserve to use the first aid kit?

but anyway, it totally sucks. in the end they sprayed sth onto my hand, and the pain was gone momentarily.

REALLY, dont they know sth called toothpaste and they should be equipped with it all the time in case the hot water tap malfunction and start to spray whoever who dares to get near it with boiling water?

Maybe they never thought that silly ppl like me could even enter NJ.

yup, i think thats why.

i do hope my mens' give me a break for tmr since its gonna be WET, DIRTY n FUN.

cant see how wet and dirty are link to fun unless u are a pig who love rolling in mud or on the dirt.










" It's a damned life,
rumors n sulks.
bloody red skies forever more.
It's a bad life in the sadly ever after
Page of the very first chapter.
It's the horror of a damned life.

Who needs to know,
when it all comes and when it all goes..
Who needs to know just when
fate will push u there

CUZ ITS SUCH A DAMNED LIFE"
- adapted from Charmed Life(my bg music)


yeah.
cuz its a damned life and fun is no longer in my dictionary of nj.
not that i have one thats named after me anyway.


BYE.

HOPE FOR A BETTER TOMORROW........

6:06 PM ·